vrijdag 4 november 2022

Turkey- Rainbow 2019

After Sky left to Poland I fell into a strange feeling of emptiness because Sky had gone. I spend some more days in the Hippy house and then I announced my leaving. It came to me that Jukon wanted to come along and i was happy to leave with a friend.
We hitchiked to a nearby river and spend some days camping next to it. We filled the days with the playing of Chess and swimming in the early hours of our awakening. His singing voice could often be heard amongst the ripplings of the water.

After some days of cooking on a fire and walking around our dreams it was time to leave.
He had a girlfriend who invited him to come and it was time that I left for Turkey.

I spend some more time on the streets of Sofia getting sick and thinking about my life untill I finally found enough love and encouragment inside of myself to catch the ongoing wind of opportunity.

A friend of mine gave me 200 euro's.

She gave this to me so that I could go to the Turkish Rainbow without delay and suffering.

I highly appreciated it.

Money seems to end all suffering. Or at least, it transforms you into a place where social poverty could be ignored more easily.

At this time, I was contacted by a friend of mine who was on her way to the Rainbow and she frequenly gave me updates about where she was. I took the bus to Alexanderpolis, planning on going to the Turkish rainbow alone, for my friend was somewhere in the area of Thessaloniki spending time with her daughter.

But as i walked out of the busstation I heard my name. "Cestmir!!"
It was my friend with her daughter.

They had arrived in Alexanderpolis from Thessaloniki and had stepped out of the car of the man who brought them here seconds before they stumbled upon me.

"Marian!"
I hugged her very much and then felt more than happy to introduce myself to her daughter.

Her name was Gold and I fell in love with her.

I found another piece of the puzzle when i looked in her eyes.

' I thought so already."
When i confessed my love to Marian for her daughter she told me that she already knew that I would fall for her.

Damn. but how could i stop myself.
She was another shiny marble in the seas of clues. 

I seemed to never stop being honest about the love that I deemed neccesary in this life.

The next moments were a blissful few when I followed Gold to a cafe to drink something with her.
Marian was still there to remind me that there was still some reality that needed my attention. 

So I told them about my plans and that I already had a busticket to Turkey. I invited them to come with me but they wanted to catch a ride across the border. Our roads seemed to seperate quiker than I wanted but Gold gave me a present from her personally: She had heard that my phone was broken and she let me borrow her phone so that I can give it back to her when I had found the Rainbow. 

It was a masterpiece of a gift. It was everything I wanted and more. It was a symbol of her undying love for me. It was a heart that she trusted me with. 

So I left them with my new phone and went inside Turkey alone,


But the phone brought me company sooner than i thought.

There was a girl in the town where the bus had taken me that wanted to meet me. 
She had seen my post on the rainbow forum where I posted where I was located and she was happy and surprised that I was located in her hometown.
She had never been to a rainbow gathering but she loved the vibe and she wanted to meet. So I had an appointment with her.

Another marble in the seas awaited me and I was more than happy and open to experience what life gave me: It was a beautiful passionate girl, that externalized her freedom and gave me a sense of direction in a troubled world. 

We met the next day and immediatly there was a huge connection. I was pleasantly surprised that God had put a very beautiful girl once again on my path and I could not help but love the way she talked and expressed herself. 

I think she liked me to because she trusted me and laughed a lot. 
Chemistry was created and Dawn had become a piece of my heart.
She took care of me in the next few days, bringing me food, letting me meet her sister and mother, and taking me to a park where I could sleep. 

But even after all this kindness there was an even bigger surprise. She decided that she was going to take her mother's car, drive to Istanbul and she wanted me next to her on that journey to take me all the way to the Rainbow gathering that was going  to happen close to her end destination. 

I was feeling so happy. Dawn had an appointment in Istanbul and it would be an honour for her to drive me to the entrance of the rainbow before she went to her appointment. 

She had freed me from a future where I had to travel alone to the rainbow and she had given me a few extra hours alone with the beauty that she was. I was thrilled. 

The roadtrip was amazing! We laughed so much together! She was a beautiful piece of art that needed to be satisfied with all the love in the world because she deserved it. 

She was a goddes. A true pearl in the lands of sexual energy. I loved her but I let her go. I didn't want to involve myself in her life too much and when I found the rainbow with her, she could only stay for a few hours. She said goodbye to me and she made me promise to see her in Istanbul after. 

I was doomed. There was so much beauty in this world. How could I ever choose? 

I gave Gold her phone back and spend some days and afternoons with her, talking and casually flirting with the beautiful girl. In those days, I was still loyal to the pains that the past gave me and I could not yet be honest and forward with the desires and the confidence that I would later have. Gold would leave and I would stay behind, to choose solitude above the clumsiness of life. 










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