Tidaholm - getting Baptised

After Copenhagen i hitchhiked to Tidaholm to visit the lovely Parents of Michaela again, you know, that girl i followed in Copenhagen two years ago. I made a promise to them that i was going to get Baptised here in Tidaholm if i were ever to believe in Jezus. and what happened. I believed. I can only wonder about the many confused faces right know so i will explain it (again) When i was a young boy my father left me and that became a big hole in my live and when i was older my brother went crazy so i lost him to. To make the tale shorter, i felt alone in my search of prosperity and love. I needed to do it all by myself. Untill i made the best friends ever in school. The two friends who became the closest ones to my heart are Cristian and every time i am in the company of them i feel the true love they have for their Wife. I could taste the love in the air and it would let me float on soft clouds of prosperity. Before i traveled one of those friends gave me a personal prayer, asking for Jezus to guide me and protect me. It was so special i cried.  after my trip i came back to him and asked him if i could meet his god.

He canceled his appointments and showed me. In this moment i had a click in my brain, i don't know how it happened but everything people said about God didn't matter anymore and only love remained. so now i believe in Jezus. But not in the God of the Cristians or heaven or hell or the church or the bible. I stumbled upon my own believe ( maybe it exist already)
That God is a Unconscious Being that created all of our Unconscious (nesses?) We are all connected, our thoughts are all connected. So when you have a thought, that thought can Travel inside my mind and gives me an idea or Answers. We can open each other soul and heal the wounds of strangers just by sharing our story because we were meant to be. We are all pieces of one puzzle. I see my God all around us because it is you, what we created, what we are.

From an early age i was curious about why people believe but i never searched for the answer. I knew deep down that i needed to Stumble over it and i did, a couple of times, like when i was in Lisbon

I stayed with someone but i was lsot so i asked directions on the street. This man showed me how to walk but then as he walk away he turned around and asked me
"Wait, who are you , where do you come from and what do you do."
"I am Cestmir Bergsma from the Netherlands and i am a poet."

"Well, then i have a quest for you." he said
"I need you too find the true belief, i believe in the Islam but that is bullshit, i want you to find the true belief."

I could not believe it, every thought i had, every feeling in my body in words spoken, from a stranger.

I wait now, and i watch, if i had the feelings to go and explore what i think and what i stumble upon i go and explore. Not any belief is the right one but i can take something out of Cristanity and Islam to create my own faith and my own truth. so that's what i did with Jezus.

The third car who took me gave me 200 kronen because he liked me so much
the fourth car was an aged man who was into sports cars , his son in law had a Ferrari and we played on the highway together. As we got closer to the spot where he would drop me off he repeated over and over again that it was very, very hard to hitchhike in Sweden. When he ssmoked a sigaret i made said "When your sigaret falls to the ground, i will be long gone."
He laughed at me "that's never gonna happen."

So i walked, i stood, i put out my sign, my thumb, and the first car stopped.
I waved at him as i got in and he honked at us as we drove away.

The car i was in had a aged woman inside it who worked in Stockholm in a church and came  into faith the exact same way i came in. Through love, realizing that Jezus is nothing but love. We connected so well that she dropped me off at my friends place.

Rocky had prayed for me a couple of days earlier to ask if i could arrive at the perfect time. When i knocked on the door of their house, they were just in the middle of a discussion about that God more than sometimes does not listen to Prayers.
When Rocky opened the door, he just shrugged and said  "oh Cestmir." in a very relaxing comfortable, all knowing way and he just walked back inside. His prayer was heard.
He had not told his wife about my plan to visit them so she was quite shocked and they had another visitor, a Dutch woman who turned 70 that week, She lived in Jeruzalem and had taken 20 orphan kids in her home and raised them.



A plan was made to get me Baptized and Rocky would do the honours. the women would be my witnesses. We went to a beautiful lake and i discarded myself of my shirt and trousers and after my witnesses prayed for me, Rocky and me went into the lake. It went quite glorious and smooth, When it was done i smiled so hard and i had such a good feeling about that this was a perfect decision that i jumped again in the lake. Rocky began to Scream from joy and i joined in. Within this Joy he said "This is the most special moment in my life, that i could baptize Cestmir."