Albania

Stranets Puked in the car of Reina and Marianne

these were two lovers from Germany, that took us from the beginning of Albania, 200 km in the direction of Sarande.

but they were not mad. It was a rental and we stopped by a nice restaurant for me to clean it and then i could eat with them.

Reina had an allergy to doghair but he still took us.

Hitchhiking in Albania was something of a challenge.
I was lucky that i had found the true love inside of me to don't give a fuck about waiting.
because we waited for a long time. sometimes only one car in one day.

but i might say that we had fun.
I took Stranets on my shoulders when he didn't want to walk anymore and then a taxi stopped

"what are your doing,! are you mad?
you can come inside. I can take you."

In four days i found myself in Saranda.
I was taken in the afternoon by a guy who already had two hitchhikers from Turkey in the car. These Hitchhikers had a friend in Saranda that they were about to meet.

This friend was called jesmier and he was a very lovely guy.
I asked him to point me directions to the beach where the Rainbow was. He found out that it was four hours walk. He invited me to eat with them and i made a poem for him which he adored.

1000 lek was given to me after i repeatedly said to him that i wanted to walk in the night.
He didn't want to see me go but i was stubborn.

So i began to walk straight untill i met a left and a right path.
i turned around and a motorcycle came my way.
i waved my hands and stopped him

"What is the direction to Lakova?" i asked
Wauw,, that is too far, too far"

something in his voice made me want to play with him so i said:
"Can you take me, if it is so far, maybe it is bettter if you take me"

He looked at me awkwardly and then to my dog and said "but you have a dog."

"That is not a problem, I can take him in my arms."


After a minute of silence and looking for words he said: "Wait a second."
I watched how he drove off in the night
and i was almost sure that he would return

he went to his house and returned with a jacket on
"Oke, Lets go."

he needed to give fuel to his motorcycle and then he drove me all the way to the beach of the Rainbow.

I could not believe the realisation of this fact. This young man was absolutly one of the most kindest young men out in the world.

he did not even ask for anything but fortunatly i had something to give him.
I let him wait for a couple of minutes while i searched my belongings and found what i was looking for

i had a necklace and earrings that were the shape of waterdrops in a clear blue sparkling color
i gave it to him and i smiled when i saw his fascination about the gifts he received..

i also gave him the 1000 lek that i received earlier that evening.

And so i was, finally on the beach where the Rainbow was being held.
i walked a little bit further untill a rockwall that i had to climb was in front of me.

the Rainbow was being held on a small mountain next to the ocean.

So i slept on the beach and in the morning i wrote my diary.


Suddenly Stranets barked and i looked up. Dark was walking towards me..
of course he was.

Dark is my friend that i met four years ago and the second time we met was two months ago in the Rainbow in Turkey.
I knew that he was coming to the Rainbow in Albania and of course we had to come at the exact same time.

he slept on the beach as well yesterday and it was wonderful to meet him out of the blue.
that's what best friends do.

He sat with me and after the normal chit chat i asked him a favor
"I have this beginning of a song that i wrote,, with a tune and everthing and i want you to turn it into an actual song"

"yeah, why not.. let's begin."
Dark was a streetmusician/ singersong writer and when he gets exited about a song he shoves all other things to the sides and he goes for it.

so , all of a sudden he had his guitar out and we were brainstorming and singing away.
Some of the Rainbow people passed us but we ignored them mostly to do our little rainbow.

When the song was done, i was bursting with proudness and humble feelings. It was a fucking good song. We sang it together and it was just like what i had in mind. It was a drinking song.

Dark had a recording in Istanbul next month for his album and he wanted to record this song in it.
I was amazed and very happy about that idea.


When the song was done we climbed the mountain a little bit and it soon was all flat areas where the tents were seen and the main fire.


The Rainbow was much more wisdom filled than other Rainbow's i have been. All were more aware of what their impact was on the atmospere and each other. I was telling stories and i was not even 10 minutes in the Rainbow. "Where do you set your tent." "I sleep in my sleepingbag. I don't have a tent, and what about this spot right here. That's looks very good. I sleep there."

It turned out that it was right next to the mother and the child. Frida and Julian. Every morning i would go to their tent in my sleepingbag and join their early breakfast and company.

Dark had his tent a little bit further up. I located it easily and Dark really liked The Princess of Snowflakes and Kid so we went up almost every morning to get a Dark Breakfast. Snowflakes was from Sweden and she had a good friend with her that joined her on her First Rainbow. He was called Bjorne and i fell for his charms. But as i found out, Dark fell harder and a romance began.


One time, i was walking with Snowflakes and Kid to a cafe in the neighbourhood and it turned out that Snowflakes and i had a very strong connection. It grew with Cuddling in the tent and sharing intimate words and time.

And then one day,, i stayed behind in the Rainbow when Snowflakes went to the cafe with another man. they were planning to fly to Colombia together. Suddenly i had this vision of Snowflake's face and this man and a sense of great danger surrounded me. I was surprised and did not want to take it much heed but then Stranets barked very suddenly. As i looked, he looked straight at me.As if to say "shall we go?"  "Let's go." i replied and then Stranets and i jumped up and we ran over the beach to the cafe. As i turned around the corner, Snowflake saw me and said "wauw,, my prince came." we hugged and she was surprised that i was so sweaty, After i confessed what i was doing here she felt special and i think that is when she fell for me. She decided not to go to Colombia and stayed on the Rainbow untill i was gone.


Many things happened on the Rainbow, as always, but Snowflake captured my heart and let me forget about every misery or past adventure that i had. As i was held in her arms or the mere presence of her made me feel so comfortable. made me forget about the whole wide world and made me embrace the child inside with every moment more.


My stories around the fire got far more appreciation and respect and respons than it usually did. People got touched and said that my timing and my topic were perfect. I even inspired two lovers to not always fuck every night but just cuddle the whole night through.


I met a sister who has the same birthday of mine and every time she speaks i hear myself speaking in her voice.. our stories are so similair in the quests and the answers that we searched for and found. "Do you know Cestmir, that i wrote my first story when i was 11 and it was about a boy called Cestmir."

I just smiled at her for more than ten minutes. the absolute pleasure of meeting her was not soon to be forgotten.


And another surprise came my way.

I made my way towards Dark when suddenly some one said "Cestmir."
I looked up and my happiness went through the roof, because there, standing in front of me, was one of my best friends, who i did not see in Two years.


"Mir!!"


I jumped in his arms and our foreheads collided and our eyes could only mesmerize upon the beauty that we found in each other.

I met him in the Maroccon Rainbow
. he was one of the people who was welcoming me as i went into the Dunes of the Desert.

To see him was a very big sign to release my inner child in all it's glory
and that is what i did. We laughed so hard in the maincircle that night. Every one was wondering what was so funny. My laughter just exploded and got the attention of us all.

I was so happy to see him. he lives in Sardinie. he can use the land of his brother to tend the bees, plant some flowers and vegetables and he will receive two sheep in the spring. For one year he was already tending the land..

I cannot wait to go there with Stranets to live with him.

Mir loved Stranets as well. he could see clearly that we were meant for each other

Snowflake joined us saying. "It is very nice to be in the energy of true friendship."
Snowflake and me became lovers and companion's.

"I think this is why lovers meet. To be in this comfortable state."
Snowflake was right. When i was with her i forgot all about the outside world.

She made me with every move of her fall deeper in love and she said the same thing.
"It is like , you already embraced all of my pieces, and i know that, even though i haven't told you. It fills me with this trust in myself and you that makes my stomach tingle."

"I feel the same thing."

Together we could be so comfortable with each other's energies that we didn't really care for how the world saw us, or how we were supposed to be. We were moving with the speed of comfort and every movement theirby was perfect.

We blended with gravity and she said "I think we are the perfect team. We can do anything i feel."

All my life i wanted to meet the fairytale ending wherein i would meet the woman who was so honest and self sufficient that love was not work. not a thing that needed to be kept alive. Just an energy that moved inbetween us and with every change we adapted in such a way that we were always coming back to that comfort our love was made of.


Kid was a pain in the ass. he was jealous of the place i filled in his mother's heart. He never expirienced Snowflake falling in love and he wanted to know what the heck i did in their tent every night.

When Snowflake explained, Kid understood and he suddenly kissed me on the lips.

It was still hard to be in this environment where Kid did not had any other children to play with and no toys to move his attention towards.
In the end,, i left

i needed to stay on my own both feet again and this time i was planning to go straight to the Netherlands. Back home. Because it was time. My fairytale had ended. Truelly ended when i met Snowflake and it was time to go towards my goal of inspiring all mankind with the words that i can share with them in my storytelling way.

But as i went, for three days i was getting crazy, reaching the line of insanity because i left Snowflake. the girl that was my every dream come true. i had it all in my hands and i just left it to follow my ego.
I was a bastard and i tried to hitchike back for awhile but Hitchhiking was getting nowhere and she probably left already so i had to keep going. But i was crying on the streets. A man saw me and gave me a huge sandwich, a ride to the nearest town and he payed for my room that night. At last he gave 300 in Kroatian currency and that is maybe 40 euro.

When anyone is saying that humanity sucks, point them in the direction of me and i can convince them otherwise

I got a small injury with my left foot but i found a walking stick of bamboo and i walked further.
that day one car stopped with an american man who was born in the same town where Snowflake was born.

He dropped me of at a street where markets stood for the drivers to stop and buy some nice things.
when these markets saw me, they gave me nice things.

i bought some olive oil and honey and they gave me three bags of oranges and three tasty bread.

I was not picked up, so i slept on the camping without paying. travellers on this camping invited me to eat with them and so i did.

the next day i wanted to hitchhike again but i checked Facebook first.
and yes, i got a message from Snowflake that lifted my sprits and for the first time in days i could actually enjoy that i was going home. very slowly but surely.

the message was this : 

Cestmir, I miss you deeply and treasure you highly and want to be with you already... And no I can not forget you and well I kind of absolutly believe in The fairytale about us even tho I don't want to believe. I even miss your kiss god damnit! And I am troubled  trying to write to you because why do I even need to write to you? I feel like I should not be further away than The distance of direct Word vibrations!! Nyway what ever is up 4 you I'm happy for The ones in your presence and hope they see and appreciate the mighty strenght in you. I love you

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A car drove me to Split. Split had a train, going further, so i took the train to Zagreb with the money i had. Dark had given me 80 euro's on the Rainbow. In Zagrab a girl loved Stranets and she gave us 20 euro's and i took the train to Austria, Graz.

Here i had a friend who lived nearby so i contacted him and i could spend a few days with him. I spend that night in Graz so i could eat with him and his friends. his friends heard my story and gave me 20 euro. I made them a poem.

the next few days were really amazing, with the best food ever and with many walks and talks that made my day and put a huge smile on my face. My friend was lovely, very honest and humble towards what life gives him. I met him three years ago in Graz in a cafe. I made him a poem and now, for the second time i was enjoying his company and hospitality. the third time i had to pay for myself.

He loved Stranets and secretly wanted him to stay. Stranets loved it in his appartment but we had a different adventure that waited for us.

I went to Vienne where i heard that there was a cheap night train going to Hannover. Unfortunatly there were no dogs aloud. After a couple of minutes of designing a plan i paid for the ticket and waited for the evening to come.

Stranets and me spend 8 hours waiting and in those hours we received many a gift. and a girl came to speak to us. She was very nice to talk to. A Turkish girl who was an archeologist. When it was time she guided me to the train and i went with Stranets over my shoulder, hiding in my sleepingbag, as if nothing was wrong, inside the train.

Stranets was supercomfortable and no one knew that i just smuggled a dog in a sleepingbag in a train.

I was sleepy, so i slept a little bit and when i woke up, a man asked "do you have a dog?"
"yes." i answer in an unsure voice

suddenly he drags Stranets in view.
"This dog was going out of the train and i found him walking around."
 The train had stopped and when the doors opened Stranets wanted to take a walk.

Slowly we arrived in Hannover and then the train to Zwolle.

I met my Grandma first and then i went to Enschede to meet my mom and dad and Brothers and other relatives that i have missed.

It was really wonderful to see them again after 8 months and i felt like i could explode with laughter every day.  i met with two of my best friends where i played chess with and laughed hard in a park.

Life was going to be really good. I was not afraid of myself anymore. Of what i could do in the society that is reality. 

Snowflake missed me so much, she was going to Enschede, from Sweden with her boy Kid to meet me and sleep in my mom's home.

now,
she is taking Kid to bed and i cannot wait to stop writing and hug her, as if i never ran away from love in the first place.